Legit Vomit.

Bahaha! That title cracks me up. Mostly because it rhymes. Here it is folks, the first time I threw up in this pregnancy was around 10am this morning. I know I said in an earlier post that I had thrown up because of watching Food Network/Netflix shows. And as I was finishing up that blog post, I was literally fighting back the puke. It was a for sure thing. And then it wasn't. I hit publish and ran to the bathroom and nothing. No sickening urge, and I certainly wasn't going to force it. I meant to change the end of the post, but such is my pregnant life that I literally have no time or energy or brain power to remember these things. And even as I sat down to write this, it seemed like it would require less of me just to explain it than try to change what I said before. And now. I'm. Exhausted.

Oy.  So this is my legitimate (Legit Vomit!!) 1st puke of the pregnancy story. I will not get disgusting because I wouldn't wanna read that. But can I just say, it was worse than I remember it. I am one of those people that will do ANYTHING to not throw up. I don't think if I do it I will feel better. I avoid it. I was taking zofran, but then when I didn't really use the facilities for like 5 days, I didn't think that would be an acceptable side effect for the next 5+ weeks. It did help. The overwhelming nausea was always there, but I didn't need to puke. But let's face it, when you're downing the laxatives and nothings a-movin, drastic measures need to be taken. So I switched to phenergan which I have had semi-good luck with in past pregnancies. I have to take it more often, and I still have to fight the urge to vomit once in awhile, but at least there aren't any side effects I can't deal with.

So early this morning, 3:30am, I was feeling really sick. I usually take my prenatal, some fiber stuff, and the nausea meds with as little water as possible and immediately lay down after ward and try not to move or smell anything. This also usually happens at 6:30-7am. So I took it all super early today, and then forgot to take it again, out of my routine and such. I had a small piece of toast at 9am and by 10 it was obviously digested because all that came up was stomach acid. Lots and lots of it. Accompanied by some blood. If you've never thrown up blood, it's unnerving. You know deep inside, it's not a normal thing. Which is why I take the medication and try to prevent it.

I believe it's because I threw up for 9 months straight with Emma. No joke. There were maybe a handful of days the whole time that I didn't puke. For the whole first trimester, it was 4 times a day. It's so sick to say I was a little relieved when I was down to vomiting once a day. With Lilah it was weeks 7-16 and my throat bled a couple times. With Will it was weeks 7-14, and I tried so hard not to throw up because from the very first time (like today) there was blood. I knew weeks and weeks of that would ruin my esophagus. And here I am again. Bleh. I hate this. It feels like a rite of pregnancy passage though, doesn't it? Okay, maybe not for the lucky ones who never get sick a day in their pregnancy, but for me, it's not real until I start puking. Uhhh. That's awful.

All I can do is get through it. My current countdown is for my first appointment. It's in 9 days. I just gotta make it til then.